I am a little church.

i am a little church(no great cathedral)

far from the splendor and squalor of hurrying cities
-i do not worry if briefer days grow briefest,
i am not sorry when sun and rain make april

my life is the life of the reaper and the sower;
my prayers are prayers of earth's own clumsily striving
(finding and losing and laughing and crying)children
whose any sadness or joy is my grief or my gladness

around me surges a miracle of unceasing
birth and glory and death and resurrection:
over my sleeping self float flaming symbols
of hope,and i wake to a perfect patience of mountains

i am a little church(far from the frantic
world with its rapture and anguish)at peace with nature
-i do not worry if longer nights grow longest;
i am not sorry when silence becomes singing

winter by spring,i lift my diminutive spire to
merciful Him Whose only now is forever:
standing erect in the deathless truth of His presence
(welcoming humbly His light and proudly His darkness)

-ee cummings

An Important Person.

i'm thankful for the friendship i have with the girl on the left.

that is all.

until.

I get it.

Sometimes you run just to see who will follow...

I hate that statement. I think it's really stupid.

Come on! Come prove your love! Your friendship! Your devotion!

What's worse...it's true.  We do that! We take off, we say hateful things, we demand attention, we shy away. It's all a game of affirmation - tell me, show me, who I am to you.

I've had several conversations this week that have brought me back to this point of wondering why we do so much to hurt ourselves.  We should be remembering this, always:

he might say:

"You don't matter."

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but He says:

"I loved you so much - in your weakness,

and your doubt,

before you loved me -

that I sent my son to die for you.
Without this act of love,

we couldn't be together - forever -

and I wanted you with me.

No matter what you say or do,

I will love you.
No matter how far you run,
I will be right beside you."

How's that for affirmation?

Until.